My 23rd!

Went to work as usual last sat. Met up with Sarah and her friend, Regine and Belle. George and Mad decided not to come at the last minute. Went to this place in Orchard Towers above Harry's. Club 392? Somethin like that. Had lychee martini thanks to Sarah's friend whose name I can't remember. Had another one thanks to the cheekopek elle lookalike band member haha. Was made to go on stage for a happy birthday song. How embarassing! Elle kept checkin out me butt. All in good fun I guess. The band was good obviously since they are african americans. But I didn't like the songs they played. More old school uptempo stuff e.g earthwind and fire. There were sleazy dancers durin the breaks haha. Interesting! But got boring after awhile.

Proceeded to some club in Clark Quay. Belle got me the flaming drink. Waterfall. Damn drink got my drunk. Felt sleepy n a lil dizzy. She dragged me to the dancefloor where there was a pretty cool band playing. Trans singer and all. Could hardly walk straight what more dance. Sarah and Regine joined us as we were goin back to the table. Band finished playing and it was closin time. By this time I was feelin terrible. Just wanted to get home. Thank god i didn't puke in the cab. KO-ed at home.

Sunday went to novotel at Clark Quay again!! haha. Buffet dinner wif mummy kim, boo, hia hia, michelle, my folks n bro. I noticed spongebob the minute I stepped in hehee. Was so surprised! Handmade by hiahia, mich n mummy. So nice. Inside was my own spongy and clothes from billabong! at home i saw it was shorts wif suspenders!! I like! and t-shirt.

Yummy food!! Even had choc fountain. good desserts but not much cakes. liked the baileys choc cream tho i felt sick with the taste of alchohol initially. Had headache whole day man. Got the peeps to bring me cake wif a candle on it haha. Pear Tart from the buffet actually.

Mon went to watch Fantastic Four. Nice nice. Had lunch at yoshinoya b4 the show. Found a nokia hp in the cinema but returned it in the end. ha. why must i have a conscience. feels kinda good tho.

what a nice bday. i usually have such sucky ones but this year's was great! on wed i got 2 spongebob's from belle and mani pedi voucher from whole clinic. Also got squidward and patrick a few weeks ago hehe. i feel so loved. i don't even care that some forgot my bday. got an e-card from xinye which was hilarious. just read it today. wat a great bday. i'll never forget my 23rd.

last night i vaccinated whisky myself and screwed up. now there's a lump on his back. so worried. hope it goes off if not will have to cut it!!! pls pls pls. poor whisky cried in pain when i injected. felt like cryin to man. would be so sad if anything happens to him. my whisky boy!

went to timbre last wed night after work to meet up with benang, pok, and ade. jeannette joined us later. some charity thing was on and two bands i dunno played. Luckily there was Jack and Rai followed by the whole EIC band! Lotsa cool music. Drank Heineken beer. One glass. Yuck. Nice to meet up wif em peeps again.

Stupid Huishan is being sucha bitch!!! Make that a lazy bitch. She's just so unbelievable. Makes work so unpleasant. Die, bitch! Die! That shall be my new mantra. Say it together now. Die, bitch! Die!

Updates...

CAC gathering on Fri. ewen, fabes, joanne, bernie, terry, mel, weng, dary, val, dav, jean. so nice to see ppl like val, terry, and dav, whom i haven't seen in ages. had a great time at Big O. hung outside wheelock for the longest time deciding what to do next. haha. ended up going to timbre. liked the band there. saw Sh and Evien there too.

this week's gonna be busy. thanks to the western theatre quiz!! argh. dunno what the hell is going on. don't even have the time to watch memoirs. how sad is that.

am looking forward to bangkok. three days of reprieve from school life would simply be heaven.

Only In Dreams

feeling all sad and lonely now. as i have been for most of 2005. was pretty much a crappy year. feel like i've lost everything this year. and i wonder how much of it is my fault. i know i have to take some of the blame.

do you believe in retribution? i do.

is this God's punishment for me? probably.

i wish the world could just stop for awhile.. wait for me to catch up. cause i'm feeling real sore about being left behind. just realised that the past has been holding me back. while everyone around me has been quick to move on, here i am still stuck in a time and place which no longer exists.

i had a wonderful dream the other night (actually it was the morning of the new year). i felt a sense of peace, comfort, and immense happiness that i haven't felt in ages in that dream which i pray will recur. i was all shook up when i woke. probably upset that it wasn't real and disappointed that it was over. i can't even remember the face of that boy. when you dream of someone you don't know, does that person exist in the real world? maybe it's someone i caught a glimpse of walking down the street? my mind is not capable of creating faces... is it? two of my friends were in my dreams. i was close to them once, but i feel that i've lost them now. another friend which i didn't wanna see was there too. but moving on. i wish i could meet him... that boy from my dream. wonder if i'd recognize him if i did. i think i would. and i think he would recognize me too. cause we were so close... so close. we had a connection. and it felt so real.

i think it is time for me to break the shackles that the past has put on me and run free from it. i will probably get a few scrapes in the process. but it must be done. i must create a new life for myself, because the others have clearly moved on. behind is not a very nice place to be in. especially not when you're alone.

the question is, how do i break those damned shackles?

christmas at centrepoint

Firefox 1.5

I just upgraded my firefox to the lastest version. Well, I don't know geek-speak so for the uninitiated, just follow the link at the sidebar to find out what firefox is all about. As for internet explorer?

I say, chuck it! Pronto.

On Disappointment (Part Deux)

"At first it can be very hard to accept how disappointing life is because that's what it is and you have to accept it. With faith and time and hard work you reach a point... where the disappointment doesn't hurt as much, and then it gets actually easy to live with. Quite easy. Which is in its own way a disappointment. But. There."

- Angels in America by Tony Kushner

On Perfection

"Since you believe the world is perfectable you find it always unsatisfying. But you must reconcile yourself to its unperfectability by being thoroughly in the world but not of it."

- Angels in America